Where do you see yourself in the story that Nathan tells David?
Where do you see yourself in the story of a man rich in flocks
and herds, and a poor man who
has nothing - nothing but one lamb, so precious that he treats it as a child,
feeding it from his own plate?
There’s evidence of love in the poor man’s life. And the rich man
evidently has all the comfort and luxury and security one might want. You could
want to be either one.
Until the rich man steals from the poor. Welcomes a visitor for
dinner, then looks at all the flocks and herds that surround him, thinks “but
there’s nothing in the fridge” and takes the one lamb from the poor man to
serve as dinner.
Where do you see yourself in this story?
What do you want to do?
David empathizes right away with the poor man. He’s ready to kill
the rich man; he demands restitution, he’s ready to leap out of his seat and
rush off to right the wrong.
Until Nathan shocks him into recognition, telling him,”You are the man.”
Now David sees himself in the story. Sees himself as the rich man who has been so
brutal, greedy, and callous in his power that he deserves to die.
Has that ever happened to you? Have you suddenly seen yourself
from someone else’s perspective, and not liked what you saw?
I have. I’ve felt that slightly nauseous recognition; distress and dismay or defensive shock.
I have. I’ve felt that slightly nauseous recognition; distress and dismay or defensive shock.
And if you’ve had that moment, you might know might know how
David feels to recognize the
story of his own actions: the man who has everything taking Bathsheba to please
himself, and sending her husband to death to cover it up. Even in marrying her –
perhaps thinking to protect her, perhaps just making her his own – David took
what did not belong to him, oblivious to his cruelty and theft.
And before Nathan told him this story, he probably thought of
himself as a good guy. A man in love, a man entitled to the best because he’d
fought and worked hard for it; a man trying to clean up after his own mistakes
and protect the woman he loved (or at least lusted for).
It’s a series of perspective shifts that could give you whiplash:
Good guy, vulnerable man, justice warrior, cruel death-deserving thief. Yikes. And
the perspective shifting doesn’t stop there.
You are this man, Nathan tells him, and goes on to remind him of who
else he is: one chosen and anointed by God, given gifts
and power and wealth and responsibility – more than he could earn or even desire.
And God would have given him as much more again.
Nathan shows David that he’s insulted God by his actions
against other people. And now he’ll get what he has earned: trouble and loss in
his own house, as he’s brought trouble and loss to others.
And now David experiences his final shift in perspective in this
story. “I have sinned,” he says, “against the Lord.”
With this final shift in perspective, David sees what God wants
us always to see: ourselves as we are in relationship to God.
Nathan first shows David how he’s been relating to other people, then
reminds him of who he is in God’s eyes: chosen, gifted, responsible, blessed – and
now, insulting.
By seizing what
he wants, instead of receiving what he’s been given, David insults God’s generosity, blessing,
and choice.
And when he sees himself clearly as the one to whom God has given
so much, he sees how he has hurt God as well as other people.
I have sinned against the Lord.
Has that perspective shift ever happened to you? Have you
seen yourself as God sees you: chosen,
beloved, blessed with gifts you neither asked nor earned?
I have. I’ve felt that sense of overwhelming blessing, and gratitude.
And then, sometimes, like David, I’ve been overwhelmed by grief at how I didn’t live up to God’s generosity and love,
feel an upwelling of confession and repentance flowing from the gratitude and
grief.
Has that happened to you?
It’s tempting – not just tempting, but almost mandatory in the everyday world we live in –
to see ourselves in terms of power, or our relationship with others. We are taught
to see ourselves as employee or boss or client; parent, child, neighbor,
stranger, friend. Customer or voter or bystander.
That’s how the world tells us to see ourselves.
Then from that perspective the world tells us we have to get what
we can, seize what we want, take
what we deserve.
And that’s how the poor
man loses his lamb.
That’s how Bathsheba becomes an object instead of a person; desired and abruptly taken by David; how
Uriah became an obstacle
instead of a human being; an obstacle to be eliminated by David.
That’s how children at our borders become pawns, objects to manipulate
their parents, to terrify and distract and deter.
That’s how women become objects in our own day and place; how cities
choke on industrial pollution; and children are poisoned by their drinking water; how voters become objects to
manipulate and trade and own; instead of citizens responsible for their choices.
That’s what happens
when we lose perspective. When we see ourselves defined by power and
powerlessness; by what we want and need and earn, instead of by the gifts and choosing
and love of God. Instead of seeing ourselves the way God sees us, as gifted and
beloved, called to God’s own purpose, called and gifted to build one another up.
And when God’s perspective comes back to us; when we suddenly or
gradually recognize ourselves as the lamb in Nathan’s story: beloved, nurtured
and cared for as God’s own child, given all that God’s love can give, we can
also see God’s grief when we
are torn away from God by any human entitlement or ignorance
or selfish purpose, and feel God’s
desire for our restoration.
Then, like David, we can see ourselves as both sinners and
beloved; gifted for God’s
purpose even in the midst of our flaws, and be inspired to live up to God’s
love all over again.
God sent Nathan to David with a story of a lamb to shift David’s
perspective and help him see as God sees.
And God sent Jesus
to all of us, a person and a story, to help shift our perspective: to see life
in death, to see ourselves in Christ; to
see ourselves as God sees us: beloved child; flawed and failed, while still
called and gifted – materially, spiritually – for a purpose – God’s purpose – of building one another
up.
I beg you, therefore, to lead a life worthy of the calling to
which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience,
bearing with one another in love, making every effort to maintain the unity of
the Spirit in the bond of peace.
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